A Child Of God
I’ll ask you a question - when you make a mistake, what is your first thought? You hit your thumb with a hammer, what do you say in anger and to whom? You say something that sounded right at the moment you said it and seconds later you find it was totally inappropriate, what do you think in anger and about whom?
Have you ever looked in the mirror and told yourself “I Hate You!” How often do you give this consideration - “Why Me God? What the he** is wrong with me? Why do I have to live like this?”
I’d suggest, for those who might still be drinking, that you afford yourself the opportunity to stop drinking and see if your thinking about this changes. I can’t promise you anything though because I still have this thinking although it has lessened through the years and now I immediately recognize who I am complaining about and why.
Today’s Daily Reflection;
“I pray for the willingness to remember that I am a child of God, a divine soul in human form, and that my most basic and urgent life-task is to accept, know, love and nurture myself.”
In direct contrast to what I had been doing to myself prior to sober - destroying me.
“As I accept myself, I am accepting God’s will.”
We each had what to do with the fact that we’re here on this rock?
“As I know and love myself, I am knowing and loving God. As I nurture myself I am acting on God’s guidance.”
No more “my way.”
“I pray for the willingness to let go of my arrogant self-criticism, and to praise God by humbly accepting and caring for myself.”
From the Big Book page 417 4th ed.;
“When I complain about me or about you, I am complaining about God’s handiwork. I am saying that I know better than God.”
Time to lose the “louisville slugger” at the entrance door to AA like I was taught early on…
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1 opinion for A Child Of God
kyonia earl
Dec 13, 2007 at 2:20 pm
my name is kyonia and I am not confused about believeing in God, because I do. Lately my life has taken this whirlwind that I am stuck in. I believe that everything has a reason and a purpose. I can struggle for many more years financial, that is my problem. I have always taken care of my family, but when it came to be my turn I did not have anyone to turn to, I know that God has been there the whole time. I just wish that I could make myself believe. I do not know what to do, I have read the bible, begged for forgivness, even sat outside of a church, but I did not go in. I do not know what I want to hear, what I already know. Maybe you will tell me something different, I don’t know. I get so angry at myself more than anything, then I just start to get angry at everything else and everyone. I am not a perfect follower will not even pretend to be. I try to forgive myself first, and then maybe God will forgive me and help me. I just do not know anymore. I look back on my life now and hate it, when I was doing fine and taking care of my family better. I never thought once about my life. Now I just don’t know. I pray so much that I think God puts me on speaker phone and takes care of other things. I am not asking God to put me first, because I know that there are more people before me who needs His help. Just this one time I would like to be first. This is when I think that I am being selfish. Please email me back and tell me something before I go off the deep end. I just want to stop falling, and land on my feet.
Thank you for listening to me.
kyoniaearl@yahoo.com
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