A Dozen Steps

Anger

by Mark on July 31st, 2006

It still is…

Is it possible it will never go away?

Liz B. taught us to make the 2nd, 3rd, and 11th Steps our decision makers every day. Thanks Liz!

Today that is not working because… I’m not working it.

To begin with - each time I visit A Dozen Steps myself, I notice an ad, bought and paid for, by an outfit which practices direct contradiction and often violent opposition to the Twelve Steps of recovery and AA itself. And I want to throw up.

An oldtimer told me the truth years ago about this nature of “beast.” He said that AA didn’t need me to defend it. He was right. But what about those who visit this other outfit and find information that might send them into a state of mind which could kill them?

Oh, you say my dilemma is lack of power. Anger.

So, I write an article for possible publishing in the Grapevine related to a very important principle of recovery. I used information given to me by a “trusted servant.” From the suggestion of others and plain old wise business sense, numerical information needed to be verified. I didn’t go far enough yet my Higher Power did for me what I couldn’t do - He gave me friends who took it a step further. This past weekend they let me know what they had discovered. Now I await a reply from that “trusted servant” because I’m willing to give him the benefit of the doubt and determine where this misinformation originated. [Somewhere between him/her and GSO, who’s given us the correct info.]

Regardless, Anger.

I feel like I was lied to. I dislike that feeling a great deal! I feel like I have lied to others. I was given info, which, in good faith, I passed on. Verified. How could a trusted servant in this “position” offer such a level of wrong info?

I also know that “he/she” will be angry about feeling accused. It angers me that I ought to have stopped fighting anyone or anything and that this person will feel justified with their anger. I’m not allowed justified anger. Why does everyone else seem to get away with it?

Now… don’t be giving me that spiritual axiom stuff lol. I’m very comfortable with my suit of anger right now, I wear it so well.

Came To Believe - He’ll work it all out.

Let Go - He’ll work it all out.

His will and the power to carry it out - He’ll work it all out.

Keep The Faith!

[Thanks again JohnB, Gwen, dAAve - all you folks!]

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