A Dozen Steps

Still Capable Of Love…

by Mark on March 29th, 2008

I know beyond any shadow of doubt that most of “you alkies” will identify with this… :)

First Things First - I had the distinct pleasure this past Thurs. evening to chair a first sober anniversary meeting for Bob B. from our South Side Group. Congratulations again Bob! And thanks to Jan G. for carrying an excellent message - a message that had the “hinge working.”

Don’t forget Bob - this was an anniversary celebration, not a graduation ceremony…

Gotta take a moment to say thanks to my new friend Alicia at Mental Health Notes for a really cool shout out and write up! Very much appreciated Alicia :)

So, a secret that I’ve only let a couple of seriously close friends in on. I still have feelings!

And the positive is that I am still capable of love. I had begun to believe that that part of my life was finished. It may yet be, but the important thing, to me, is that I can still feel it!

Mind you - everything, and I think I mean just about everything, about the other aspects of this would no doubt be perceived as wrong. Yep - wrong. I won’t even get into the “besides the facts” since there is one distinct factor that, right now, outweighs all else, one that is entirely, 100% up to HP (as if the rest aren’t also lol). She’s a newcomer…

And, no matter what God’s plan might be - I feel required by the feeling to be both sensible, responsible, and the opposite of stupid, and leave her to focus on her sobriety, her well-being, her peace of mind. She’s been here before.

Otherwise, the feelings would be a lie!

[There are clues in this post]

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