May 3rd, 2008
My challenge is that regardless of doing the right thing I cannot get my expectations up that the results will be what I want them to be.
Therein lies one of my realities. I can care about someone. The level at which I care can increase. I can recognize right from wrong. I can do the […]
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May 2nd, 2008
Alicia has posted a very serious and very helpful entry about “Suicide Warning Signs.”
This is one area where you darn well better do a Third Step after you’ve contacted authorities to let them know that your friend might be suicidal!
I’d much rather (and have been) feel grateful that my friend is still around to be […]
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April 26th, 2008
Finding a balance between dependence and actually feeling emotions of attraction, then possibly love…
Is a challenge in the life of this alcoholic.
Thanks Oliver - your comment was right on point and contained a few lessons I had learned some time ago. I appreciate you putting them out there as a reminder to me and for […]
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April 25th, 2008
And I’ll waver in and out of it, dammit, because I have basic human instincts…
As I do so often - from “The Language of the Heart” page 237-238 (I ought to set up a cot on these pages)
“My basic flaw had always been dependence - almost absolute dependence - on people or circumstances to supply […]
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April 3rd, 2008
It had been some time since I last heard someone do this…
A Fourth Step meeting. A newcomer. Not on the Fourth Step yet. “But, I’ve been thinking.”
And this is one of those times when everything after “but” is BS. You simply ought not even attempt to “do” a Fourth Step in your head!
“In dealing with […]
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April 2nd, 2008
Returning to yesterdays’ Daily Reflection… (sarcasm ahead)
Looking Within
Ambivalent feelings: “Simultaneously feeling opposing or contradictory feelings.”
“By discovering what my emotional deformities are, I can move toward their correction. Without a willing and persistent effort to do this, there can be little sobriety or contentment for me.”
Contentment? I’m not sure I know what the word means…
“the neuro-physiological […]
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April 1st, 2008
The Fourth Step;
“Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.”
“We took stock honestly.” Which no doubt is one of the reasons “they” strongly suggested that, in doing a Fourth Step, we do it with a sponsor!
“First, we searched out the flaws in our make-up which caused our failure.” Which no doubt is another reason […]
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April 1st, 2008
On page 63, the last paragraph written on our Third Step says;
“This was only a beginning, though if honestly and humbly made, an effect, sometimes a very great one, was felt at once.”
Only a beginning, there’s a long way to go…
“Next we launched out on a course of vigorous action, the first step of which […]
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March 31st, 2008
Let’s end the month of March with the Third Step. There’s a motive, yes. I’ll let you in on it in a minute…
Step #3 - Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
This is a wonderful paragraph from the Big Book, pg. 61;
“Our […]
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March 26th, 2008
One of the many places in our literature which provided those oldtimers with enough resources to tell me the truth about me is on page 40 in our 12&12;
“Then it is explained that other steps of the A.A. program can be practiced with success only when Step Three is given a determined and persistent trial. […]
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